A low grade fever of sadness

That is what(Pastor)Dave Rod calls it.

You know, where we stay in tune with what grieves God. Thinking of others and not just our own selfish needs.

I am not a good writer. Never have been, never will be. But I had an experience today that begs me to write about.

I went out to pick up the kids and saw an ambulance in our neighborhood. For those that know our neighborhood, know that we get little to no traffic. I followed the ambulance to our elderly neighbors house, and followed the EMT's into the house.

The couple that lives there is 80 years old and have been married for 55 years never having any children of their own.

He has Parkinson's and various other age related ailments along with severe back pain.

The Mrs. was standing in the corner crying as they asked the Mr. some questions. He had taken too many sleeping pills last night, and she had a hard time waking him up.

Upon further questioning, it sounds like he did it on purpose. He just kept saying, "the pain doesn't let up" , "I can't get a break", "I didn't want to wake up". His speech was slurred and his head bounced as he talked, as only someone with Parkinson's can.

My heart broke.

I stood with the poor Mrs. and hugged her and helped her answer questions to the fire and police officers at the house.

She wouldn't let me drive her to the hospital, choosing to drive herself, she is independent like that.

My heart is still so heavy for them. The hopelessness and desperation he had to feel last night. The hurt and helplessness she has to feel for him.

My point is; I had no idea it had gotten that bad. He calls for medical advice frequently, we take food down, shovel for them etc. He always calls me "kid". But I didn't know it had gotten that bad.

Sometimes I am so "busy" being "busy" that I forget the pain around me.

"Father God, help me to be aware of those around me who are hurting. To think of others before myself, to be a blessing. I pray for healing, peace, and comfort for Mr. and Mrs..They are so precious in your sight, Lord. Amen."