I have a special talent. It is a learned behavior, needed to survive sometimes. I wish I wasn't so good at it.
You see, I have the ability to put on a happy face and appear that everything is great, when I am actuallly crying on the inside.
Last week I was at a very public function when out of the blue was struck with the image/reminder of a past hurt. I kept going, talking to people, being social ,acting like everything was great.
I got to my car, alone. I just sobbed.
Feeling. very. alone.
I looked down and saw my scripture cards on the dash. On top it read:
Psalm 139:4
"Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord."
I sobbed some more.
You see, God knew my hurt, before I even had to say it, or ask for help. I believe He cried along with me- He loves me and doesn't like to see me hurt and broken. He knows my heart, even when I hide it from others.
As the week has went on, I have been struck several times by songs, blogs, images, verses, that remind me of how much He loves me.
I don't believe in coincidences.
I believe that my God loves each of us so much that He desperately wants to show us.
For this I am truly thankful!
He shows up when we need it and even when we don't think we do.
We just have to be attentive to Him.
Where have you seen God today?
tia
1 comment:
Oh Tia, I wish I could have been there to cry with you. I go through that too. Sometimes the slightest thing - a sound, smell, word - will remind me of the abuse I experienced as a child and it takes all I can muster to not break down in public. You are right - God is there grieving with us. Love ya!
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